4 AM Thoughts

I don’t recognize myself in the mirror anymore. My body did this incredible thing - created a whole person - and now it feels like it belongs to someone else. The nursing bras, the soft belly, the way I move so carefully because everything still feels tender. I’m learning that recovery isn’t just physical.

4 AM Thoughts

She grabbed my finger tonight during a feeding and just stared at me with those dark eyes, and I swear she knows exactly who I am. Like she’s saying ‘you’re my person.’ In that moment, all the sleepless nights and the wondering if I’m doing anything right just… stopped mattering. She knows me. Even when I don’t know myself.

Marcus took this photo while I was having one of those 4 AM conversations with Sophie where I tell her all my fears and hopes and she just listens. These are the moments no one prepares you for - when it’s just you and your baby and the rest of the world is asleep, and somehow that’s exactly where you’re supposed to be.